Elusive Achievement

Besides being a quitter, or perhaps because thereof, I have never felt a sense of accomplishment in my life.

I mean, how can you possibly accomplish anything if you've always given up on everything?

Friends and family tell me this isn't true. That my graduating as an Electrical Engineer from Georgia Tech was a very significant accomplishment. But what they don't realize is that I basically coasted through "Tech." Except for the frequent all-nighters - that were more a result of procrastination than any real work ethic - I never really "worked" at my education. I only went through the motions.



As I've said before, I've never really had to work at anything. That's not to say everything has always come easily for me, but I've never experienced the satisfaction of gradual, step-by-step progress towards a difficult, worthwhile, distant goal. Instead of having to find ways to get past setbacks and obstacles, I simply lowered my head, turned around, and walked away when things got tough.



But character is only developed when you persevere through adversity. What, then, can be said about my character?

I now see how interrelated all of this is. Lack of character development leads to low self-esteem, which leads to poor self-image, which leads to depression, unhappiness, and on and on until one arrives at the present state I now find myself in.

Now you can see why this present effort is so important to me.

I want to basque in the glow of personal achievement. I want to know the feeling of blasting past plateaus, setbacks, and other challenges; the detailed planning and experimenting that goes into doing something like this.

This is also why July 4th in Key West means so much to me. This will represent my first significant accomplishment. Will it be like I have imagined and written it will?

Please join me, then, as i strive to achieve this challenging goal.

Will I reach the finish line? Or, will I stumble and fall along the way?



Only time will tell...